Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts

March 7, 2017

17 Days Post Op


I'm starting to feel like I am on my way to recovery. I still have a constant aching in my left side of my bottom from the hip joint. I'm trying to cut back on the pain meds but use them as needed. Softer things are easier to sit on as opposed to firmer things. I never get completely comfortable and move from my bed to the living room chair. I'm still using the elevated toilet seat as its softer than the regular toilet seats. I, still, continue to use the shower seat as well.

My doctor took me off my hard core meds and left me with some weak stuff. :) I'm still having nerve pain run through my calf. The morning time is when I struggle most as I feel stiff from laying down all night.

My biggest struggle right now is mental. Having already struggled with depression in the past, I know the signs and symptoms when they begin. I always thought that staying home for a few weeks to just chill, watch TV and read books would be great. I'm learning that it is great only if you have the freedom to do other things as you please as well. I'm unable to go outside by myself right now due to not having a chair I can easily sit on but I'm working on that. I'm unable to drive due to still taking narcotics but, also, being unsure of getting in and out of vehicle to use a wheelchair. I dread living the next 9 weeks like this until I can weight bear on my operative leg. I've begun reading the Bible as that will bring hope and comfort. I told the Lord that I would learn whatever He wants to teach me and I know He can speak to me through reading His Word as well as through life.

I have started to get out more recently. My mom took me to the girls' school for Savannah's cheer uniform fitting. Joseph and I also went to a movie! I'm still uncomfortable and have to adjust and move a lot to keep pressure of that left butt cheek. It feels good to get out though!

We have been supernaturally blessed by all the meals. Our friend, Kaleena, set up a meal train on takethemameal.com and we have had meals coming since February 19th and the continue until April 2nd. I had a hard time receiving that and was actually embarrassed by that many meals thinking people would see us a "needy" and that that was too much. However, someone reminded me that I have cooked meals for people for years and that we are "reaping what we have sown". That's one thing I'm learning on the journey....to receive and let the Lord use others' giving to bless them.
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January 3, 2017

Family Update


(Left to Right) Savannah (11), Sadie (6), Sarah (10) & Shelbe (8)
Last time I was blogging, Joseph and I only had 2 girls....toddlers at the time. Since then, we have moved on to 4 girls! Yes, 4--they weren't all planned and we had them really close together (they are all less than 2 years apart) but they are all wonderful and so much fun! Its amazing how they can all be so different, in looks and personality.

Our oldest is Savannah. She's almost 12 and is incredibly strong and determined. There's quite a bit of attitude these days when it comes to her but I'm so encouraged because I know God is going to reign that in towards doing great things for His kingdom! She will be a great leader in God's time. She's a smart girl and school comes very easy for her. Areas that don't come very easily for her at this time include getting along with her sisters, knowing when to listen rather than talk, and feeling mercy for others. She has a very compassionate heart though and can, at times, be very considerate. I can see such growth in her these days.

Next, is Sarah who is 10. Sarah has the sweetest spirit of all my girls. She is very sensitive to other people's needs and feelings. She is also our rule follower and expects that everyone else should follow the rules as well. School is a little more of a challenge for Sarah but because of that, she has had to develop very disciplined study habits. I believe Sarah is the one that will be the most sensitive to the Holy Spirit and His moving. She's intuitive and senses things in people and her surroundings. I think she's the most likely to stay close to home as she grows as well, but, who knows.

Shelbe is our free spirit. She is 8 years old and if she was allowed, she would be naked.....all the time. Shelbe is not afraid to be in a crowd and not know anyone. Her comment is, "It's ok. I'll make friends. I just walk up to people and say, Hey! Wanna be my friend?" I love that about her! She's also unafraid to be alone. She can play by herself for hours. Shelbe will be the one that will be unafraid to leave home and go somewhere for the Lord. She also finds happiness in all situations and is not scared of anything.

Sadie is the youngest and is 6. We all thought she was so cute when she was little that we all catered to her. It was cute until she turned into a monster and we had to quit treating her like the princess she thought she was. :) Sadie is a giver, always finding ways to help people. She's always making a craft or drawing a picture to give someone. Her middle name perfectly describes her character....JOY! She wants everyone to be happy and to have everything they need and she is happy to be the giver of all those things. The Lord will use her to bring joy and smiles and happiness wherever she is because He made her a giver.

I may have all of this all wrong. They may all end up in different roles and doing different things than I imagine. This is just what I see in them now. It's so fun to imagine the things the Lord is going to do in their lives as they grow and learn to serve Him. I'm so thankful for these girls. They bring me happiness and purpose. I love being their mom!

January 2, 2017

Finding Purpose in the Pain


I gave up on this blog about 7 years ago. Life got busy. We had more kids, totaling 4 girls. It was just one more thing to keep up with. Now, at a uncertain time, I find myself needing to talk my ideas and worries out. At the ripe old age of 37, I just was diagnosed with severe hip dysplasia. Yes....like found in dogs. (insert eye roll)  I've always had pain, especially after running. My left hip has also always popped...like a really, really loud pop. I remember, 10 years ago, Joseph and I were living in Northport, AL while he was graduate school. He would drive to Birmingham and I would drive an hour to Columbus, MS to work. Before waking up my 2 oldest (& only at the time) girls for the drive, I would get up and run on my treadmill for 30 minutes. On many occasions, I would limp through the day not knowing what was causing such pain. We thought it was that I wasn't stretching enough and was then cooling off in that seated position in the car on the drive to work. Fast forward to the last 4-5 years, I have run 6 half-marathons. They were not easy. I've always carried more weight than I should so I figured that was the reason. However, no matter how much stretching and no matter how much I worked on my running pose, I always hurt.

hip xray
My last run was in August of 2016. I went to the riverwalk on a beautiful day....by myself. Being by myself was the best part. :) I made it about 2 miles but was struggling. When I headed back, I felt a pop in my left hip but it was different than usual. From that point forward, I literally limped and cried back to the beginning. I was able to make it to a park bench, lay down and stretch my left leg enough to be able to walk to my car. I, almost, got my husband to make the 15 minute drive from home to come get me but my pride wouldn't let me. My husband quickly got me in with a local orthopedic MD. Honestly, from my research, I thought that I had bursitis. An x-ray proved otherwise. "You have hip dysplasia, Amanda." I had no idea what it was or that it would interrupt the flow of my life like it has and will for the years to come.

"Hip dysplasia means that the hip joint is the wrong shape, or that the hip socket is not in the correct position to completely cover and support the femoral head".

I was referred to a hip specialist at the Campbell's Clinic in Memphis, TN who actually specializes in hip dysplasia. He sees mostly pediatric and young adult patients because that is the age in which hip dysplasia is diagnosed. I pushed through the pain for way too long. I should've listened to my body better and not been afraid of going to the doctor.

I really like my doctor in Memphis. He spent a lot of time with us and educated us on everything. One of the most important pieces of information he taught was degrees of femoral head coverage, which is basically how much does the hip socket cover the femoral head. Coverage of 25 degrees or
less is considered to be hip dysplasia. Coverage of 16 degrees or less is considered to be severe. As of December 2016, I have 4 degrees of femoral head coverage on my left hip and 15 degrees of femoral head coverage on my right hip. (SIGH) I was presented with 2 options: hip replacements or a hip perseveration surgery. Recovery from a hip replacement surgery is much easier and quicker. However, there are activity restrictions to make the replacement last as long as possible and, due to my age, I would need at least one revision. Recovery from hip preservation surgery would be tough but it would allow me a more active lifestyle afterwards and could, possible, prevent a hip replacement in the future. My doctor's words were, "We are going to carefully ignore the right hip while we take care of the left hip first." Great....2 hip surgeries.

I've chosen the hip preservation surgery. The fancy name is periacetabular osteotomy (PAO). The doctor will cut part of my pelvic bone out and re-align it over the femoral head and insert screws to hold it in place. After surgery, I will be toe touch weight bearing only for 12 weeks while the bones grows where it has been cut. Walkers, crutches and wheel chairs will be my transportation.

Here is a link to a video (animated, not actual surgical footage) of the PAO surgery.

Surgery will be February 16, 2017 in Memphis, TN. I'm not worried so much about me. My Heavenly Father knew this diagnosis long before I found out about it. I know He uses situations in our lives to draw us closer to Him and strengthen our faith. The sermon this past Sunday was for me.

A few points that grabbed hold of me:
1. My response to what happens is what is important. My response should be to look past the pain for the purpose.
2. Instead of praying what I want, ask God, "What's next?" and "How can this be used for your glory?"
3. God doesn't cause problems but He does permit them and use them to grow us in our relationship with Him and to show the world His faithfulness to His children.

I'm ok. I don't like to rely on others to take care of me but I will to be well for the future. My concern is how do I manage a family of 6 from the couch or bed? At times, it takes myself, my husband and my mom all going in different directions to get these kiddos everywhere they need to be. Also, how do I wash clothes, get them ready for school, and do all the other things required of me while on crutches and unable to put weight on my left leg? My husband and I have told the girls that they are about to have to pick up some of the load. He's actually said that this will be good for them in transitioning them to becoming more independent.

It will work out. The Lord has it planned out, I know, but I'm nervous. I suppose that's human nature. I'm ready to learn what it is He wants to teach me. In the midst of having to slow down, I'm yearning to hear His voice and learn what the next step is.




June 22, 2009

Shelbe's Dedication

I'm so glad that baby dedication fell on Father's Day this year at our church!! What a special day!


This is all of us joining in prayer for the babies that were dedicated and their families.
Savannah and Sarah (who is eating her shirt)

Me and Shelbe (trying to keep Shelbe from pulling my necklace off)

I hope everyone had a blessed Father's Day!


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July 25, 2007

Today, I'm Just Sad

I wanted to write something today but was having trouble getting in the mood. I'm just sad. A friend of mine that works at the hospital with me went through in-vitro to become pregnant. She was so excited to find out that she was expecting triplets. Not long ago, she found out she was going to be having 3 boys. Two days ago (at 19 weeks gestation), she found out that they had died. Not only did she lose all 3 babies, she had to be induced to deliver them. She delivered at 6:30 am today, but she won't be able to take home her babies. I just hurt for her. I know that God knows all and that He is completely sovereign. I believe that with all of my heart! My heart still aches for her when I think about what a loss she must feel.

Since I heard about this, I have thought about the blessings that I don't always remember...fertility and the ability to carry a baby full-term. So many women struggle with this and how, I know, they must ache for a child. The Lord has blessed me with two healthy babies! I can't thank Him enough!

Lord, bless the women (and their husbands), who are struggling with infertility. Work YOUR will out in their life because you are GOD and you know what is best for them. Give them strength, hope and, most importantly, reveal your love for them so that those that don't know you will learn what an awesome God you really are. I don't know how they cope with these situations without You!


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July 7, 2007

We Are Going To See The King

Soon and very soon
We are going to see the King
Soon and very soon
We are going to see the King

Soon and very soon
We are going to see the King
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
We are going to see the King

No more dying there
We are going to see the King
No more dying there
We are going to see the King

No more dying there
We are going to see the King
Hallelujah, Hallelujah
We are going to see the King

**I love this old song. It brings joy to my heart! My husband and I have been singing this song all day today. My oldest daughter picked up on it and started singing with us tonight--except she says "Hallelu-lah". :)

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May 17, 2007

It's Only Pneumonia!

I have sick children! I took them both to the doctor on Monday because they both had EXCESSIVE snot and were both coughing up lots of mucous. The doctor gave them both a decongestant and cough syrup. Monday night, my oldest daughter started running fever, throwing up and having diarrhea (don't you just love hearing about that?). :) This morning, she woke up with 101.5 degree temperature so I took her back to the doctor. Turns out that she has an ear infection in her right ear and the beginnings of pneumonia. Needless to say, she was not a happy camper at the doctor's office. She had blood drawn, a chest x-ray and a shot in her leg all in one visit!

I hate to see her feeling so bad. I will be spending the next few days nursing her back to health as much as possible. The nurse practitioner at the pediatrician's office was very concerned about her staying hydrated. So far today, she has not been drinking much. Please help me pray that she begins to drink more. The last thing I want is for her to be hospitalized for dehydration. Thanks so much, my dear blogging friends!!

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April 12, 2007

Daddy & Daughter

I have to share this because it is just so sweet! My husband has been doing this for a while and my daughter has it memorized. Nonetheless, he tells her this every night. He will say: "Look at Daddy's eyes. Daddy's got to talk to you. You're pretty, smart, beautiful and I love you lots."

Then he will ask her:

Daddy: "What does God have for you?"
Daughter: "God has a plan for me."
Daddy: "A plan to do what...?"
Daughter:"To prosper me."
Daddy:"That's right. A plan to prosper you for what...?"
Daughter:"For good and not evil."

Now, if you can imagine him saying this and her replying in her very sweet & innocent 2 year old voice, you can picture how sweet it is. I just beam when I hear him speaking God's Word over her and building her confidence and self-esteem!

April 5, 2007

Family Miracle

I wanted to share with you what God has done for our family! We say God has performed a miracle for us. It's not a miracle like you are thinking, but God has worked what we thought was unimaginable. My IRL friends have already heard this, but they can amuse me again!:)

A year after I got married, God decided to move my parents to Baton Rouge, LA. This is about 6 hours away from where my husband & I are living. I am an only child so this was hard for our family! We were thankful that God had provided my dad with a job but hated to be so far away from each other.

This became worse on us when my husband & I found out I was pregnant with my oldest daughter. My parents were happy but were disappointed because they were going to be so far away from their grandchildren. We had always prayed that God would move them closer, but this is when we REALLY started praying and EXPECTING God to do something. We began relying on a scripture in Ephesians.

"Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand." Ephesians 6:13

We knew that we were doing all we could do by praying and believing. We knew that God wanted us to just STAND and WAIT.

The job that God gave my dad in LA was not one that he enjoyed. He has sent resumes to every company he could find that was closer to home and within his field. What we didn't know was that the job that my dad was miserable in was preparing him for what was coming! About a month ago, a man called my dad about a job that he NEVER applied for. This man just happened to look on a web site and see that my dad belonged to a certain committee and thought he would call him.

My dad took the new job and is now able to work out of his home and live anywhere he wants. Needless to say, he and my mom have put their house up for sale and are moving by us!!!!! We are so thrilled and feel so blessed! We never thought that it would take 8 years of consistent praying but God heard our prayers that whole time and kept telling us to STAND, WAIT and BE AMAZED!

As I'm writing this, I'm thinking of Annie and her family and how they are forming a nightly prayer chain on Izzy's behalf! Annie, know that God hears your prayers! Your prayers and faith are all you can offer! After that, you have to stand and wait to see what GREAT things God is going to do!! We are all praying with you!

March 24, 2007

Stepping Out In Faith

This is my first official post. I'm a little nervous because sharing information about my personal thoughts and ideas take my out of my comfort zone. However, the Lord is doing wonderful things in my life and they need to be shared. In the last two years of our life, the Lord has moved my husband and I to a different city away from our wonderful church and friends that we loved so dearly. My husband decided to pursue higher education and, although, we would be able to move back to our hometown, I was bitter for being transplanted. He graduates in December and since we have moved, the Lord has taught us so much about faith and waiting. He has taught us this in a couple of areas. Obviously, with my husband in school and my working part-time, we have learned to have faith and wait for the Lord to provide our basic needs. (We have never gone without anything we need--maybe some wants--but I am learning that I can be perfectly happy and fulfilled without the some of the wants I used to think were needs.)

Another avenue we have learned faith and waiting is through our oldest daughter. She was born with a nasal tip hemangioma. It's a collection of abnormal blood vessels that grows alarmingly fast. By the time she was 9 months old, the end of her nose looked like a perfectly shaped, red ball. (I've attached a picture at the bottom.) Being the protective mother that I am, I wanted (there are those wants again) and prayed that the Lord would remove it immediately. However, she just turned two and we just returned from Little Rock, AR for another laser treatment. A year ago, we had the hemangioma removed but the red color was embedded in her skin. So, now we return every 4-6 months for a color corrective laser treatment. To this day, she has never noticed a difference in her nose and others. It was my own worries that hindered my faith. The Lord has shown himself faithful through the whole process.

I was reading a Focus On The Family magazine and read a question that someone asked Dr. Dobson. It read, "I've often heard that God will not abandon us when we go through the fiery trial. But I don't understand what that really means. What can we expect from Him in the stressful moments?" Dr. Dobson answered, "I may lack the words to describe what occurs to the faithful in times of personal crisis. Let it be said, simply, that there is often a quiet awareness in the midst of chaos that the Lord is there, and He is still in control."

This is what I have been learning. Be still and now that in the midst of difficult times, the Lord is there and in control.